I feel like I should be drowning. Like there’s a metal ball chained to my leg, but somehow I am floating.
People may think this is a good feeling but it is not.
I deserve to drown. I want to drown.
But somethings are preventing me from drowning.
It’s a heavy feeling, this whole thing. Very heavy.
Im not okay. I’m really not okay. But I don’t know if I should say it
It’s best I keep this to myself.