“I wonder what would your High School self tell you now that you wear nail polish”

I know what she would say, “Oh god. Oh god oh god oh god. What the fuck, Why are you still alive? We made a fucking plan. A plan you promised us you would keep. You promised us that you would stop hurting the people you love by stop being such a fucking burden and leaving this world. You promised us. How dare you be so selfish. What happened to being ‘I want to be a selfless person’ Fuck you. 

And now you’re with her? What the actual fuck. YOU ARE BURDENING HER CAN’T YOU SEE IT. Motherfucker how selfish can you be.

What the actual fuck.

You should be dead.”


“I bet she would say ‘What the fuck bro'”

Haha. Half true.


Why am I so destructive?

I wish I knew why too.

I wish I wasn’t.

I wish I didn’t destroy everything I love.

I wish I don’t hurt the people I love.

I wish I stop doing bad things.

I’m sorry

I’m messy

I’m sorry you fell in love with a heap of a garbage mess.